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Friday, August 21, 2009

MIA again..

I don't know why it is so hard for me to keep up with my Xanga.  I sometimes just feel really bored writing about myself plus things have been so crazy hectic for my family the last little while.

If any of you want, you can add me on Facebook.  Just look for Jessica Farrow Carawan. 

I'm going to attempt to keep in touch here on Xanga but I'm on FaceBook alot so if you have a Facebook account look me up!

I love you guys and I appreciate so much you guys listening to me and encouraging me while I've been here.  I hope you understand and can forgive me for taking this break.

Love you all,

Jessica

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Monday, July 06, 2009

A couple of Carly 1sts and My 4th of July...

 025  023 026 This is her first set of piggy tails!! 

 

033 027 And This is her first trip to the pool this summer.  She had a little bathing suit on earlier but we took it off to change her diaper and it was too cold for her to put back on so this was the result!!


This is what I was dealing with all weekend at work.  Ocracoke Island is part of Hyde County to whom I dispatch for.

Fireworks explosion victims belonged to one church

A Goldsboro church is mourning the loss of four members after what authorities have ruled as an accidental explosion of a truck carrying fireworks killed four people and seriously injured one on Ocracoke Island July 4.

Senior Pastor Bill Wilson of The Lord's Table Church identified the four people who died as Mark Hill, 21; Terry Holland, 49; Charles Kirkland Jr. and Lisa Simmons, all of them residents of Wayne County.

The lone survivor, whose name hasn't been released, had burns on 20 percent of his body and was listed in fair condition Sunday at the North Carolina Jaycees Burn Center at UNC Hospitals in Chapel Hill. Wilson said the survivor was Holland's nephew.

The whole church gathered for a prayer meeting Saturday when it learned so many of its members had died, the pastor said.

“I've never dreaded coming to church here in 11 years. This Sunday, I told my wife as we drove to church, this was the first time in 11 years I dreaded going to church,” Wilson said.

Holland, who had previously organized fireworks teams, was hired by Melrose South Pyrotechnics to lead a crew to do the village of Ocracoke Island's fireworks display, said Charles Kirkland Sr. He recruited church members for his crew, hoping to help them earn some extra money.

Among those Holland recruited was Simmons, who was his girlfriend, Wilson said. Simmons volunteered in the church nursery.

Hill had recently joined the church. Family said he had looked forward to fishing during a free weekend on the Outer Banks.

Kirkland, an electrician who went by "Kirk," left behind three children and a grandchild. He had moved from Maine six months ago and was looking for work.

“He took this job so he could try to make some money, so he wouldn't have to depend on mom and daddy,” his sister, Lynne Smith, said.

Charles Kirkland Sr. said his son was a bit of a rebel who hadn't always had a good relationship with his family, but he had come home recently to make amends.

"That relationship has become exactly what it needed to be. The (last) six months has been a healing process for this whole family," Charles Kirkland Sr. said.

Holland was the church's building and maintenance supervisor.

"Terry was my baby. Terry was my heart. He was more than just an employee," Wilson said.

"I lost a brother not too long ago. I lost a sister. But when I lost Terry, it hurt even worse."


I do sincerely hope that all of you had a wonderful weekend!  Please be in prayer for the families of the deceased, the survivor and all of the many volunteers who assisted in this event!!  I, and I can guarantee that I'm not the only one, am glad that July 4, 2009 is over!!

 

GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!!! 

 


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

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& the results are in....

well sort of.  My regular doctor still has not heard anything from the specialist and my doctor's last day at the practice was Friday.  Him and his wife are pregnant and will be moving closer to family in Chicago.  Sucks.  Anyway, I guess the new doctor coming in will continue with the pain syndrome where Dr. Fisher left off but for the agoraphobia he wants me to see a shrink!!!  I don't know what to think about that.  I'm curious.  I'm scared.  I'm upset.  We were going to try to a prescription or two before the shrink step but the specialist is taking his precious time with his findings that Dr. Fisher doesn't want to make the pain worse and some meds for the phobia can do that so......

I need some help accepting this.  I never thought that it would have to go this far.  I mean no disrespect in my next statement but shrinks are for "crazy"people (my simple minded way of thinking).  NOONE I know has ever seen a shrink!  I have only told Cory and my mom and dad and now you girls.  I never considered myself crazy.  Dr. Fisher said that I wasn't crazy.  I'm super embarassed about it.  I'm scared that this is going to change people's perseptions of me.

Please keep me in your prayers girls.  They are very much needed and appreciated!!!


Thursday, June 11, 2009

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Okay so it has been 2 weeks since I had the appointment with the rheumatologist and I still have not heard anything beside my inflammation levels being elevated.  Nothing about what to do about it or anything.  I have yet to hear from my regular doctor about the rest of the stuff either.  I'm getting just a wee bit aggravated!  Such is life I reckon.

Prayers are needed for my BIL.  He is a diabetic pretty bad.  His sugar is way out of control and has been for a while.  He has finally decided to really take care of himself now.  He is married and has 2 children ages 13 and 12.  He got a staph infection the other day and went to the hospital Sunday.  They gave him some antibiotics or whatever and sent him home.  He went to his doctor on Monday and they have pretty much told him that if he cannot get rid of the infection that they are going to have to take his leg off at the knee.  His livelihood is outdoors.  He mows yards, landscapes, cuts down trees and stuff like that.  They do not have any insurance and without him working they are really going to be hurting financially.  Please pray that the infection is cleared up and that they'll be able to save his leg but more importantly that God's will is done and accepted no matter how hard it may be.  Just pray that the family is comforted throughout this ordeal.

The rest of the family is having its ups and downs as usual.  My MIL, Carly's babysitter, is battling depression.  I believe she may be slightly bipolar.  My FIL has an appt. with the cardiologist on Monday.  He is overworked and underrested and his bp isn't like it should be.  He'll come in from working and sit down and not even a minute later be snoring.  Cory said that he fell asleep the other day while standing up cooking the crabs.  MIL is scared that he is going to go to sleep and not wake up.

My mom and dad are doing well.  Daddy is fighting some demons that are trying to tear the church up again.  People really don't have the loyalty to their church that they should and yes I'm pointing the finger at myself here also.  Our feelings get hurt over the simplest things and we're ready to pack up our things and switch to another church.  I think that we all need to be in prayer for our spiritual relationships as well as our physical ones and maybe even more so.

I may be getting ready to face the fury of my in-laws.  I have a facebook account and Cory's ex wife asked to be friends.  I don't know what compelled me to do so but I accepted.  There is no loved lost between my in-laws and her.  She did a rotten thing to Cory and his family.  My mom says that it's time we let bygones be bygones and that we grow up.  I just hope that my in-laws feel the same.  My facebook is nowhere near as private as my xanga so it's not like I'll be spilling family secrets or whatever.  My SIL is on facebook and I have no doubt that she'll say something to my MIL and maybe even Cory.  I'm not keeping it a secret from Cory.  He really has no interest in what I do on the computer as long as there is no threat to him and there's not so.....

I'm guessing that that's all I have for you girls tonight.

Stay safe!  Faerie Hugz and Baby Dust!!!!!


Sunday, June 07, 2009

Is no news really good news?!?!

I still have not heard anything from the rheumatologist other than my inflammation levels are increased.  Him and my regular doctor are supposed to discuss the results of the lab work and then my regular doctor and myself are supposed to discuss the next step.  He does want to start treatment for the agoraphobia.  He just wanted the results from the specialist first.

Carly is becoming quite the curious creature.  She locked me outta my phone the other day.  I didn't even know the stupid thing locked.  So we had to drive an hour to the closest US Cellular service tech to get him to hook the phone up to a computer for less than a minute and get the 4 digit code.  I hurt so bad when I got off work Saturday morning that Carly stayed with her nana and papaw.  All I wanted to do was go home, take a pain pill and go to sleep.  Well, Carly was playing in the kitchen where they have ceiling to floor windows.  The bottom of the window had a ledge that is just big enough for Carly to use as a window seat.  Well, she was playing and her nana went into the bedroom and her papaw took some trash out.  Carly apparently decided that she didn't want to be inside so she pushed herself through the bottom part of the window.  I didn't find this funny until I was assured that she wasn't hurt.  They had the windows open to let the breeze blow through the house.  Needless to say I don't think they'll be doing that with Carly there anymore.  Granted she's a little leary of that corner now too so......

I'm hurting again this morning too.  It's all in my back though and I know what's causing it.  My lower back hurts because of the wreck I was in a few years ago and my upper back hurts because my boobs are too big.  The fact that I have to sit in uncomfortable chairs for 12 hours while I'm at work complicates things also.  There are 5 chairs in this office right now and I have sat in every one of them since being at work tonight.  I have sat low to the ground and up higher.  I have sat straight up and have reclined.  The chairs are not ergonomically correct. This office is going to hate it when I have to bring in my own chair because I can't sit in these anymore.  The doctor has suggested that.  I usually have time to get up and walk around but the past 2 nights have been super busy and I've been right here in front of the computer for 10 1/2 hours now.   It has taken me over 2 hours to write this update.  It's getting crazy around here.

And that is all for now!  Much love to you all!!



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